Eden

Sometimes a song can express exactly what I'm feeling and needing to say,

but don't know how to.

Sometimes when I don't even realize that I need to say it.

Every now and then, I can have something that's been weighing on my heart

for the past few months

or the past few hours

that I'll know I need to take to God

and I just won't know how to.

I have trouble letting go of things.

I am able to say

"God I can't handle this.

Please, help me.

Take this from me.

You're so much more capable than me."

But I'm not always able

to actually let go.

I want to.

I've often prayed for the desire to want to let go.

Because you need that before you gain the actual ability, right?

But, sometimes, I'll have this

struggle

temptation

doubt

worry

depression

weighing on me so heavily

or maybe I'll push it to the back of my mind

and try to deny that it's weighing on me

and then

I'll hear a song

it could be a song that I've heard countless times

or one that's brand new to me

and my heart

will just break.

It'll bring tears to my eyes.

I love

love

love

finding songs that speak the words

that I can't find to say

no matter how desperately I want to say them.

Eden by Phil Wickham

is one of those songs for me.

The first time I heard it, I was sort of mesmerized.

I got chills.

By the end I was smiling and crying at the same time.

I wanted to hear it again

And again.

And again.

It's beautiful

and it describes the way I feel about God

in a way that I never could find words for.

I still get chills

and sometimes a little teary

every

single

time

I hear it.

I hope you like it, too.

Do you have a song that speaks to you

like this one does to me?

Eden by Phil Wickham

When the first light brightened the dark
Before the breaking of the human heart
There was You and there was me
Innocence was all I knew
'Cause all I had to know was You
We were running underneath the trees

I wanna see you face to face
Where being in your arms is the permanent state
I want it like it was back then
I wanna be in Eden

I remember how'd You call my name
And I would meet You at the garden gate
How the glory of Your love would shine
And I remember when the stars were young
You breathed life into my lungs
Oh I never felt so alive

I wanna see you face to face
Where being in your arms is the permanent state
I want it like it was back then
I wanna be in Eden

To be naked and unashamed
In a sweet downpour of innocent rain
I want it like it was back then
I wanna be in Eden

Where my eyes can see the colors of glory
My hands can reach the heaven before me
Oh, my God I wanna be there with You
Where our hearts will beat with joy together
And love will reign forever and ever
Oh my God I wanna be there with You

I wanna see you face to face
Where being in your arms is the permanent state
I want it like it was back then
I wanna be in Eden

To be naked and unashamed
In a sweet downpour of innocent rain
I want it like it was back then
I wanna be in Eden